We must be willing to let go of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. Joseph Campbell
Dear Ones, It’s 4 am and I’m scanning the internet for quotes to capture the overwhelming sadness and fear filled wonder I’m experiencing. The world is changing and so am I. Everything in life has a beginning, a middle and an ending. My identity wants to hold on and make what isn’t working, work. But, my spirit knows that something very vital and beautiful is ending and I have a choice as to how I meet the challenges that lie before me. As we move from winter into spring I want to have faith in change and see the vibrant beauty within and around me. Embracing change and uncertainty is the path of growth and my soul recognizes that I am moving into a new phase of my life that will take courage, presence and surrender.
Truth is what is, not what should be or what we would like it to be. As I move into the role of elder and Meriel is blossoming into the fullness of her adulthood, we recognize that the nature of our relationship is changing and evolving. Our relationship was born out of an intense passion, a soulful calling, and a deep desire to be of service to the world. The past 3 and a half years have been filled with miraculous beauty, deep, often challenging exploration and infinite growth, and now it is time to meet the new challenges we are facing in our lives. We are in the process of designing a joyful break up based in love, kindness and mutual support.
Some think that holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it’s letting go. Herman Hesse
The part of me that wants to hold on and make our relationship work, to fix what’s coming undone, and ignore the obvious signs that it is time for change, is devastated. My fragmented identity wants to be mothered, loved, and nurtured. It desperately scans the exterior world to find comfort, reassurance and nourishment. But, my soul knows that this is an inside job and so I turn inward through meditation, contemplation and curiosity. I trust that all the inner work I have done will carry me, as I let go of my grip on the past and open my arms to what’s possible, and ask, “what truly wants to be expressed in this precious life I’ve been given?”
Meriel and I love each other deeply and have grown immensely in our time together. It is a love that can never die, a flame that feels as if it has burned for many life times and we hope to pass it on to future generations through our work and our commitment to service, contribution and community. We are currently designing what is next and looking at what seeds need to be planted and nourished and what old habits and patterns need to die, in order that life itself can flourish within and around us. We may or may not continue to work together. We can be counted on to keep our hearts open as we step into the mystery of it all.
Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Marilyn Monroe
It is a time of new beginnings! We encourage you to look at what parts of yourself are wanting to die, so that the essence of your soul can fully emerge and do the work you came here to do. There has never been a time on this planet when our gifts, strengths and talents were more needed. Change and separation are never easy. Perhaps the greatest challenge is meeting it with a grateful and joyful heart, an open mind, and a commitment to what’s possible… And remembering that every ending is a new beginning!
The current work we are doing on transforming stress, anxiety and overwhelm is perhaps the best we have ever done. It is deep, real and so poignant for the times we are living in. One of the participants in session one of our online course called it “life altering”. If you are someone who is facing big changes in your life, we encourage you to join us. It’s not too late!
with abiding love and deep gratitude, michael
When Michael and I met, the connection that we experienced immediately was too powerful to deny. It rocked my world and created huge change in all aspects of my life. Our relationship has a synergetic quality, that we will expand into the future. Living and working together 24/7 in a tiny (very beautiful) cabin has been challenging, and there are fears that I experience regarding living alone, which I have not yet taken the opportunity to experience in my 52 years. As I learned to Rock Climb in order to face my fear of heights, I feel it is time to move into my own space, minimize computer time and revive my bodywork and Tai Chi Practices. Time to integrate some of the many wonderful experiences that we have lived over the past 4 years. We will continue to work together in some form and have so much appreciation for your participation in our Well of Light community. Many Blessings, Meriel
Be in love with your life. Every minute of it. Jack Kerouac